I like most mid twenties American youth seem to suffer the delusion of entitlement. I’m proud to say that I worked and worked and put myself through college, and now, I am left with the insatiable feeling that I am owed something for my efforts. Statistically only 25% of the American population has fulfilled their college education. So there seems to be a lot of frustration building in me as to where I should be in life. I feel that I have achieved and then over achieved in the fields of academia. Where is my exciting job? Where is my office with a window? Where is the German engineered luxury auto that I should be driving to and from one trendy urban hot spot to the next?
The horrible chasm of understanding seems to be plunging me into the realization that I am just meat, not the clothes I wear not the car I drive. My ugliness is not a reality, it is a comparison to a imaged male stereo type created by marketing firms.
Oh no jonny boy! That is loser talk you have to be all you can be! Race the dream!! Ten more minutes on your elliptical!
The question stems from my greatest fear. Failure. Who wants to be “that” guy? You all know him he’s the Jones that couldn’t keep up. The guy who missed the boat. The one with the shortest straw. The last guy on earth to realize the awesomeness of an Ipod. The words of the fictional character Tyler Durden ring true but if taken the wrong way they are just an excuse to half ass your way through life. Don’t judge me don’t compare me to what “society” deems correct.
As I progress in age I notice the rebel who died his hair silver and blues slowly fading. The new person emerging wants something more in life than to claim I didn’t sell out to a minority group of degenerates who themselves have sold out to a theory of anarchy or trendiness. Complete mass appeal can never achieved and I am doubting that I’ll ever find peace with myself so whos standards do I live by?
The condition I fight every day is to not live by is fear. The fear of failure causes one to hesitate, to not approach a situation rationally. You begin to approach life as a series of lined up tasks rather than pieces of a puzzle that are meant to be put together.
So any tips on combating this plague dear non existent readers?
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