Birthdays

Happy Birthday Yak and America. In that order.

Today I spoke to a long time friend, we lamented the good times of the past and gave witness to the curious future that awaits us. His countdown is in it's final year and the haze of immortality has lifted from his eyes. The man was the eternal city minded folk and it is good to see that he will need to elevate his personal desire for responsibility in order to move forward in his life.

an intersting thing it is to have grown upper Low lower class in an urban environment. In many happy ways I have become what I and my friends most despised. I'm a yuppy. So long to dreams of urbane chic music dwellings. I find now that I often run and look for places of solitude rather thatn boisterousness in an effort to relax. I belive at the core of this contempt for subarbinites lurks the ever popular class envy. Suburband in rural kids are viewed as people of wealth who had all the means in the world. The great caveat of this contempt is that no where inside this does one find the courage to go beyond their means. In this envy there also seems to be resinment to ones fate.

I am certain that this is even more present for those who are living in project housing and their ilk. Despite a large portion of public funds being dumped into these environments it's still nearly impossible to convince a child that he can grow beyond his surroundings. There is a saying that irks me to this day. "Where you begin is a good indicator of where you'll end up." I have no doubt that the poor firmly believe this and then use it as a crutch for not getting things done.

I wouldnt bore you with some form of uplifting story of the girl with three legs half a brain and 5 eyes who one day became the mayor of some crap town. It has to come from inside or you have to go to the true source. I often have repeated to myself that "I am my only obstacle" to some extent this is true.

As we head into the fourth of July try to get over yourself and move forward with your life. If your sick of something being a constant in your life, work to remove it. If you are working torwards removing it, keep it up. The first half of the year has passed what have you accomplished? For some there will be clear things for others a bit less. Some will find progression some will find dissapointment. The point is that there is something there. Move forward.

Ideas for my tombstone inscription.


10. Click to Ankh!
9. It was this or listen to my Grandkids cry.
8. view the corpse at www.corpseview.com/BV
7. Get me out of here!
6. You still owe me Lunch
5. It was the clown.
4. Avenge me chipmunks!
3. Whos hand is this?
2. I've looked better.
1. See ya soon.